advise for ayien..luv me yeah..

wake up! wake up!
please open up ur eyes to see who r u now!
another 1 sem and another 1 intersem lg u kna catch up..
ko da nak abes dip!! Pastue ko leyh r nk blah dr tempat yang semakkan otak ko nie.. dpt scroll diploma yg ko nk tue..yg ko idamkan tue..
Sedar la sket..tlg sgt2..
jgn down2 dowh..jgn pk ko xleyh..msti pk ko bleyh..
ko leh skor..ko akn bleyh wat nya...
at least caya sikit kt diri ko tuh..saper ag nk caya kt ko law dri ko sendiri x..
Saper nk respect ko law ko x respect diri ko tue..
semangat!!!!
biar kwn2 ko tuh complete stady cpt..biar dorg bahagia..biar dorg berjaya lu..
biarkn dorg!!
jaga diri ko tuh yang penting..
pikirkan diri ko sendiri..
ckp juz b wat I wanna b..tp still nk pk org..
please ler jgn pk dorg..
bkn dorg!!

lantak dorg r nk pndg ko mcmane pon!!
lantak dorg r nk kutuk ke ngumpat ko ke hape!!
at least ko jd diri ko sendiri bkn org lain!
n plg penting janji ko belajar la weyh..ntok ko jgk kn..ntok ummi ayah ko jgk kn..!!
ko xphm per yg lect ko ajr ko ke tatau nk wat tutorial ke ape ke..
tny lect ko sendiri! X pyh mengharap bnda tue akn dtg sendiri dalam idop ko..!!ko igt ko putri rja..??please ler jgn berangan di siang hari…!!!
law mlu sgt nk tnya lect ko tny r kwn2 ko yg btol2 kwn ngn ko!
dorg akan ajr ko la!
jgn malu la ngn org sekeliling ko law ko btol2 nk bljr! Nk berjaya dlm idop ko..!!!
u can do it!! Absolutely!!!

ko kene sambung degree n master!! Biar setanding ngn sepupu ko yang da ader phd 2..
ko x jeles k tgk life dorg??heapy..idop pon sng…siap bleyh wat aml ngn mak bapak ag..
kate nk tlg n wat ummi ayah ko bangga giler ngn ko..
kate nk jd ikutan adik2 ko..
ko tuh da la ank yang sulung!!
Harapan ag tue..
eh please r!
mane perginya impian ko??
Cita-cita ko yang melangit tue??
at least skali la ko dpt png 4.0 sblom complete dip ko nie..
ko xnak wat ummi ayah ko ader prasaan bangga ngan ko ker??
ko nk org sekeliling ko owes ckp ko tue bodowh??
ko nk malu ngn sepupu2 ko k??
nk??
xnk kn??
so g BELAJAR!!
naik kn pointer ko tuh!!
sbb ader prasaan mls ler pointer ko akn jatuh beng??
haiyoo...per nk jd ler ngn ko nie..
merayap nk..tgk wayang nk..mkn fast food nk..duit nk..sume bnda nk..
tp..belajar??
Aiseyman pmls giler dowh..
Please ler..

ko x payah ingt la bnda2 lame..
yg da berzaman dah tuh..
Siap da bleyh masok muzium da tue..
sedar la weyh!
da xde sape nk kt ko da..
da da laa..
lg2 si dia..
dia xprnh syg ko..
die da berjaya dlm idop dye..cita2 dye da tercapai..
die leh banggakn mak bapak dye ngn gelaran “dr” ag kt dpn nma dye taw tnpa mtk tlg ngn ko sket pon x taw...
xkn ko xleh kot???
Xkn sikit pon ko xleyh tiru dye kot??
ko x tercabar ke dgn keadaan sidia skunk???
xda perasaan lgsong? Mmg giler r ko nie law ko xda rsa per2 langsong…
sume bnda ko nk..tp nape msih ader prasaan mls tue..nape??
eee ngada2 la ko nie ayien!!


skg!!ko try wat mcmane die wat kt diri die! Mcm maner dye bleyh berjaya??mcm mana dye bleyh jejak kt negara org!
ko bukti kan kat die!
ko ni kan boleh..
belajar lg tinggi dr dye..
hidup tnpa ader kelibat dye dlm idop ko..
makan minum tnpa nk pk psl die...
hari2 ko tanpa ader nama dye..
jgn rindu2 dye lg la weyh!
gedik la ko nih..
die xrindu ko pon..ko taw! Sikit pon x taw! Besar kuman pon x taw..!
pdan muke ko..saper suruh ko syg dye sgt..org syg ko, ko xprnh plak amek port pon kn..
pdn muka ko..
terhegeh2 kt dye ag..hrp kt dye ag..
so tanggung r sendiri..
one more time..
PADAN MUKA KO..
hahaha!!

biar org lain pndg ko hina..
janji ko xwat salah ngn dorg..jnji ko x sibok hal dorg..
asl xwat yg allah marah..
jd diri ko sendiri!!
jgn jadi plastic jgn jd hipokrit sampah masyarakat!!
tlg bangga ngn diri ko tuh..

*jgn ulang kesilapan ko masa sekolah dulu2
mase PMR ko! Mase SPM ko! Mase ko kt pilah!
Sume tue da byk buang masa ko taw..
ko merana kn dulu2??
Ko malu kn??
so jd AYIEN YANG RAJIN!!
budak yg berjaya dlm idop ko yg bleyh ummi ayah bangga ngn ko dowh!!!

a hard situation between us~~~

Malam selepas mcg ngn kak syazreen..
I mcg abg,
“ thank you damn much for what you did…!!!”
Tue la mcg yg I sent kt abg..
Mungkin msa tue I rsa mrh sgt ngn abg.. Kecewa pon ader ngn abg..
Xpernah fikir yang abg akn buat I mcm nie…
Malang nya mlm tue abg xrply pon mcg I..
Mgkin dye da tidow kot msa tue..
Maklumlah da pkul 3 pagi..
Keesokannya apabila I bgn dr tdow, I tgk ader mcg kt my fon..
Dat mcg from abg…
He said “ ermm..whats wrong wif u sis?”
I xrply pon.. Xda hati I nk rply..
Tp mlm tue, rsa bersalah ler plak xrply mcg abg..
Sblom nie abg baik sgt ngn I, x an ler xnk setle ngn dye plak..
I pon per ag mcg ler dye.. Tp I mcg ngn nada mrh..
Abg plak stay cool..Tue la prangai abg..
Xprnh berubah..
Lbh krg mcm nie ler mcg kitorg mlm tue..
I : nothing wrong with me.. but u..
Abg : about me?? Ermm.. sorry if I was hurt u.. maaf klau adik ada terasa dgn abg..
I : nape abg tipu??i need an explanation…
Abg : tipu bout what??
I : bout ur special one..nasib baik ader org bermurah hati bg taw..n I know why u told me b4 dis yg wife u cikgu..ermmm..
Abg : oo.. but I was told u rite b4 dis.. ermm..sory k ..sume slh abg.. fara, abg mintak maaf sangat2..abg bersalah pada fara..sorry sbab xjujur..
I : u told what?? Yg abg da kawen??tp abg stil ckp hri 2 yang abg xda saper2..ermm…saper la fara nk maafkan abg.. i’m just nothing person abg..
Abg: don’t say like that fara.. abg mngaku abg mmg yg bersalah dalam hal nie..please maafkan abg..
I : ermmm…aper2 jer la abg.. tp fara xnk luka kn aty gf abg 2..xsngup ler abg nk luka kn ati org nie..kesian kt dye.. I know that you love her.. am I right??
Abg: yurp..:-)
I : ok..i hope u will happy with her 4 eva..aminn…tp fara xnk r ganggu abg ngn dye ag..t an dye slh phm lak..
Abg : its ok..fara adik abg..kak syazreen xkisah..dia tahu fara adik abg n dye ckp fara baik orgnya..
I : ermm..ok..tp fara xnk law abg ngn akak ader mslh sbab fara..abg, I still need explanation from you.. why u lied me that day??
Abg : dah xpnting pn bnda 2..fara, u my adik k..abg xnk bnda2 mcm nie kita lost contact..

Selebihnya biar ler menjadi rahsia antara I ngn abg..
Abg baik sangat..
Adik syg abg…
I love u broth….!!!!!

my besh moment in my day...

Dis moment yg pling besh…
Malu pon ader sbnrnya…
Yunk nyanyi lgu burfday ntok I..
Bkn sekali,bkn 2 tp 3 kali..
Yg pling terharu,
yunk nyanyi siap blajar cord lgu ngn kengkawan dye…
yunk nyanyi n main gitar skali pastue kengkawan dye yg stu bilik jd back up singer…
Besh sgt…
Lps nyanyi lgu burfday yunk nyanyi lgi lgu..
Even bkn lgu burfday..
Thnxs dear 4 dat song u sang 2 me dat nite..
Even u xchat msa tue..
Luve u dear~~~

my 2nd celebration~~~

hari pling bengka ngn abg~~~

Hri nie I kecewa sgt ngn abang…
Xpernah I nangis sbab abg sblom nie…
Tp hri nie I nangis sbab abg..
Why u lie me??
Why u give me hope??
Why u say u love me??
Why??
Sangup abg tipu adk..
Npe abg x trus terang ngn adk??
Adik kecewa giler2 ngn abg hri nie…
Da lma I xrsa down cm nie..
Tp hri nie I rsa down sgt2..
Slps I kecewa ngn my first lurve..
Nie ler moment yg pling skit I rsa…
Nape I rsa skit sgt??
Mcm ler I ngn abang couple..
Tp 2 ler hakikatnya…
Skit sgt ati nie..
Adik menciii abg…!!!!!!!
Menciii sgt2…!!!!

around my 1st celebration~~

Today is my birthday…
The day yang buatkn umor I naik ag setaun…
Hri nie ckop 21 umor I …
21??
Yurp 21 sdh..
Cpt btol msa berlalu an…
Lps setaun, setaun naik..
Tp nk wat cmna redha jea la yea..
Hope sgt burfday dis year jd yg pling besh ntok I…
Happy birthday…
To
me!!!!

This is my wish for myself
“May this birthday be just the beginning of a year filled with happy memories, wonderful moments, and shinning dreams to me…”

my weeekend war yg ermmmm~~~~

dat day i kuar ngn hafiz yg sengal tue..
mkn mcd and tgk citer how u train your dragon..
citer tue agk besh jgk..
even lbh kpd kbdk-bdkkn..
tp ok ler..
lps hafiz tue blik,i jnji ngn my systa farah...
cian kt dye sorg2 kt umah..
tmn dye mkn at kfc..
pastue c kevin dtg join ktorg...
lps mkn ktorg tgk wyg,...
skali lg tgk wyg...
aper nk jd ler..
kitorg tgk citer daybreakers..
besh sgt citer vampire tue..
pas abes wyang,blik lpk kt nainas lak..
lpk punyer lpk...
pastue anum msg ajk g uptown..
g uptown ag...
blik koi 4 lbh..
esok nya 2 pg2 g kl lak..
umah anum..
blik koi 3 lbh..
per ag tdow r...
besh kn my weekend war dat week...
hahaha~~~~

juz an experision for my "x" dear n always b mine...!!!!

I just can’t understand the hearts of man.

He told me he want me and then he leave me.

“This is the first time, you’re special one in my life”

I believe those words and I was so happy.

You should have told me if you didn’t like me anymore. But I couldn’t see that and you just rushed me.

Although I will curse you I’ll still miss you damn much since I am a girl, to whom love is everything.

I heard that if I give up things too easily,

to a man, he will get bored with me.

I don’t think this is wrong.

As a girl, I said that I will never be fooled again, but why I fall in love again

For all guys please don’t take advantage of a girl’s willingness

to do anything for love and her caring instinct.

I didn’t know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard.

We separated today, you said you wanted me to be happy and find a better person than you. You’re just like every other man.

Didn’t you till me that you loved me?

Actually I don’t want you to be happy

What if you met a girl who’s prettier than me in every ways and live happily with her?

What if you forget me and that hurts me so much.

So much that I want to die from lovey-dovey brouhahas life.

When I still love you so much…

Although I will curse you I’ll still miss you

Since I am a girl, to whom love is everything in my life…..!!!