it becomes memories in my life...!!!

how could you treat me that way?
ignore me like i have nothing to say

why did you treat me like i was a stupid one?
how could you think of me that way?

you hurt me..!!!

when i tried to talk to you
you would always blow up on me

i was always scared to tell you
how i felt
so i just gave up

you never knew dat
when you wanted a break up..
it blew my life away..

but..
then i started to think..
maybe it could be better this way..

you want me to forgive you
but i don't know if i can

i wish..
i could every day of my life..
i hope you understand..

you said you would always be there for me
and i believe that's true

but..
how can i always know
that what you say is what you do

but you will never get to see these tears
i cry..


* after a year my tears fall again for MAN that i love damn much in my life...
tak termasuk sbab my broth...
dulu2 nanges sbab mr z skunk sbab dia plak..
sekejap sgt ngn dia..
i need a strenght..!!!

wat i felt ryte now..!!

Kenangan zaman dulu best kan?

Mesti xleh lupa.

Sumenye ade,

sumenye kita rase,

pahit, manis, tawar

dan terjadilah sebuah realiti kehidupan !

Miss my old time.

kalau lah masa boleh diundur kembali,

saya akan menghargai masa itu.

Menjadi kanak2 sangat bahagia,

dunia hanya dikelilingi

dengan gelak ketawa,

bermain sepuas2 nya

dan sekarang.............

pikir-pikirlah sendiri yea....

...........<3>............

............................

I am in love for one more time??

Omg..!!

What happened to me??

But I cant do anything anymore..

I felt in love with him..

So..so..so..

Huh..!!!

I do not know why I can fall in love with him…

So unbelievable!

I love many thing in him..

Why u so perfect for me??

I cant imagine if u love me too..

Sure r I’m very happy in this world…

His way he approach..

So gentle maa…

And so cool as well..

His eyes..

Chomel ler mata dye…

U got small one..

Law merenung org tuh..

Wow! Memikat g2..

His face..

Kecik jea..

But no so kecik ler..

Ok2 ler..

But..

Tp dye suka sgt kerutkan dahi dye..

Xsuka ler..

Nk2 msa x puas aty, msty nk kerutkan dahi tuh..

His fashion..

Cara berpakaian..

Mmg style abes r…

Xda ler mengarot cm bdk zmn skunk..

Proper jea..

Da ler suka pakai bju warna hitam..

Sesuai sgt2 ngn dye..

His hair…

So hensom…

I suka sgt rambut mcm dye tuh..

Yg menampakkan dye xtua mcm usia dye yg btol..

So clever boy..!!

And the most important is..

His character..

Not talkative like me…

Matured in any way u had been..

Smile and smile and smile…

Not straight to the point when it becomes about soul, heart and feeling..

So shy guy..

So pleasant boy..

And the most important is he so respect the others around him..

N many more ler…

oh yea lupa nk ckp..

i suka u jgk sbab..

kulit u..

i suka lelaki yg fair skin even xda r putih sgt..

ketinggian u..

i suka lelaki tinggi..

no smoke n no drink..

i love boy in this way..

it make oll of u look so cool..

u know what u made me forgot about mr Z

even i syg sgt2 kt mr z dlu..

but since u came into my life it change..

everything...!!!

thanks God..!!

for me u so perfect yeah..

even the other say not..

luf yeah...!!

*my face got blurbs*

...........<3>...........

Sad Love .........Story Love is

I had three friends.
Reza, Syaz, Athirah.
Reza was chased by all the girls in our high school.
Athirah was one of those popular girls and stylish.
Syaz was just one of those plain and average girls.
Athirah and Syaz were both totally crazy and wacko over Reza.
Athirah didn't have to do anything to attract Reza.
For she was already attractive enough.
Syaz on the other hand, showered Reza which love and care.
Syaz wasn't ugly at all.
In fact, she looked sweet and pleasant.
But she wasn't a popular girl's and stylish
so everyone expected, Reza chose Athirah.
For Syaz was just one ordinary and plain girl.
While Athirah was labeled as the cool and attractive type.

Reza always insulted Syaz.
Telling her what a 'nano-nano girl' she was.
And how dumb she looked.
Which obviously made Syaz feel so hurt and useless.
That's life. Syaz never gave up though.
She wanted to prove something to Reza.
She wanted to prove that looks aren't everything.
She studied hard, really hard.
She became the top girl, and all the guys who once ignored her, chased her.

But she never forgot Reza.
Everyday, she put a red rose in Reza’s locker.
Always with the same words.
'I care for you, and I always will'
Because she knew that Reza was facing a hard time.
Reza began to realize.
How dumb he had been.
His beloved girlfriend, Athirah.
Was flirting with other guys.
He regretted for choosing the wrong girl.
Athirah broke up with Reza later.
For she had found a wealthier guy.
Reza felt so cheated, stupid and dumb.
He went to look for Syaz.
He knelt on his knees, and said.
" Syaz, please forgive me. Do you want to be my girlfriend?"
Syaz rejected him, much to everyone's surprise.
She only uttered these words.
"You've suffered a great loss, so I don't want you to face another one"
Reza felt disappointed.
He didn't understand a word that she said to him.
But they became good friends.
Did everything together.
Reza began to change into someone better.
Because Syaz showered him with the love he never experienced before.
His ex-girlfriends had never treated him that way.
They just accepted him for his looks.
But Syaz accepted him for himself.
She changed him.
Syaz continued putting a red rose into his locker everyday.
With the same words. She never forgot.
One day, Syaz didn't turn up in school.
She didn't come for a week.
At first, Reza thought that she was on a vacation with her family.
Because she told him that she would be going Singapore with them.
But one day, He received a call from the General Hospital.
Saying that Syaz was about to die.
She had been suffering from cancer.
But Syaz forbade them from telling him.
Because she didn't want Reza to worry about her.
But now that she was about to die.
She wanted to see Reza for the last time.
Reza rushed to the hospital.
When he saw how weak Syaz was.
Tears began rushing down his cheeks.
He whispered.
"Why didn't you tell me earlier? Why did you hide this from me?"
She looked at him and smiled weakly at him.
"When I said that I didn't want you to suffer from facing another loss, I meant this. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you to worry. I wanted to spend my last days with you cheerfully." Reza looked at her.
"You can't leave me!" he said.
"What will I be without you?"
"You'll be who you are now. I will always be there by your side. Never forget that. Cherish those times. Live life happily. And one more thing."
"Yes?" "I love you" And she died. Reza screamed.
He still couldn't accept Syaz 's death.
He had only spent a month with Syaz.
Just a month! But Syaz changed his life in a way.
The way that no one could ever explain. He regretted.
But he knew that Syaz would always be keeping an eye on him from Heaven.
.............................<3>.................................

Heapy…??

Yeah I’m very happy today…
Why??
Coz I’m very heapy ler…
Suka..suka..
Heapy..heapy…

Ok la many reason sbnrnya yg wat im heapy dis week..
Byk sesangat..
In my life..in my stady..
Adoiii besh sgt ler..
Thanks God..!!!
For ur blessing..

1st…
A few days I hangout kt kajang..
Besh..besh..besh..
Mcm2 bnda wat kt sana..
Yg pling penting..
Shopping!!
Mmg happening r shopping hri tuh..
Penuh trolley I borong..
Sampai ader stu mamat tue syokgiler gelak kan..
Aper aku peduli ko nk gelak k nk menangis k tgk brg aku…
Yg penting aku x pakai duit ko..
Hahhahaa..
Release oll my tension..

2nd…
Ader gathering famly..
Dpt jumpa makcik2, pakcik2 n a few of my kupu2..
Besh sgt jmpa dorg…
Bkn senang nk jumpa dorg mcm nie law x raya..
2 pon blom tntu ader semua..
Yea la my pak muda tuh dua tahun sekali jea dpt tgk mka msa rya..
Makan sesamer2, ckp2 gelak2, yg pling penting dpt duit..
Hahahaha…
Thnxs ayah jee 4 being my banker..
Hehehe..
Kt cnie jugak ler dpt dgr…
Along here..along there..
So interesting…

3rd…
Result intersem da kuar..
My result ??
So unbelievable..
I got 4.00..
Realy??
Yeah sure..
I got it..
For my 1 st tyme here..
Heapy sesangat..
At least I da tunaikan janji I pada diri sendiri untok dpt 4.00 sblom complete dip nie..
Alhamdulillah janji da tertunai..

4th....
Ayah heapy sgt biler taw I dpt 4.00..
ummi pon msti heapy law taw..
dua kali ayah kol tnya btol k x..
tgk my ayah pon ssh nk caya ngn my result..
Ayah punyer excited mengalahkan I nie taw..
Siap suruh faks kt dye lg..
Alhamdulillah I dpt buat my parents heapy n proud wif me aswell..

5th..
I will celebrate
Burfday eidah, arfah, jacyntha and My ummi in a same day..
In the end of julai..
Msti besh..
Gemok ler lps nie sbab mkn kek byk sgt..
N kopak ler my purse coz byk blanja nk kna kuar bli present ntok dorg..
X per laa x kisah pon..
One in a year jea..
Btw wish oll of u…
“ heapy burfday 2 oll of u”
May ur dream come true..
I luv oll of u damn much..!!!

byk kn bnda yg heapy2 jea jd dlm idop i hri nie..
so miracle..!!!

luv everyone...

..........<3>...........

tetiba...!!!!

shedappp...!!!
kn3???
its one of my favrite...

semua jenis pulut i leyh makan..
satu jea pulut yg i pantang
"pulut durian"
bnci giler kot ngn yg stu nih..

i bukan bnci pulut tuh sebenarnya...
the realy is...
i bnci..
"durian"
hate it so much owh...!!!!

nk balik umah...!!!
tetiba plak nk blik...
semata-mata nk mkn
"pulut"
lak tuh..
dahsyat tuh penangan pulut kt i..!!!
adoiiyaiii...!!!!

pulut!!
wait for me yeah...!!
dis september i will come!!!

....................<3>.....................

change dat i need...!!!

When I change my thinking

I change my beliefs

When I change my beliefs

I change my expectations

When I change my expectations

I change my attitudes

When I change my attitudes

I change my behavior

When I change my behavior

I change my performance

When I change my performance

I change my life....

.............<3>................

msg in a day..!!!!

Dis day I on ym tp offline sume social net xcept twitter..

I on9 ym bersebab sebenarnya…

Lain org yg tunggu lain org plak yg tegur…

Sabar jea laa yea…

I skunk dalam proses nk cri jurnal bg complete my thesis..

If my thesis complete that’s mean my diploma also complete..

Yeaa haa!!!

Dalam2 tegang cri jurnal tuh ngn perasaan yg amat serabot

biler jurnal yg dicari x jumpa2 ag..

bkn satu uni I msok..

Id ngn password da ader tp kputusannya huh..!!

usm xleyh uia pon x leyh…

tetiba he msg me...

ngn segala ayat2 jiwangnya..

tp mamat tuh mmg jiwang pon..

xpyh disangkal lg…

biler ckp kt dye per ag yg I akn expect slain dr..

He said 2me..

“Sabar2..Dalam hati ada taman ..

nak bercinta sikit pun x boleh..”

Hahaha…

Gelak jea aku ngn dye nie sorg..

Hahahaha…

Tp per2 pon thnxs yeah sbab sudi reduce my tension..

So nice of u..

Lepaih msg ngn dye tuh..

Mcg ngn Mr B..

Haa yg nie sorg dr dulu smpai skunk paham I..

Sume bnda yg I rasa masa tuh dye bleyh thu..

Salute r ngn ko babe..

Tp stu jea nk gtaw yg ko da makin gemok r skunk..

Perut pon da makin boyot..

Hahahahaha..

Almaklumlah org da senang skunk..

Aku tumpang heapy ngn ko weyh..

Tp ko jgn jd sombunk ngn aku lak lepaih nie..

Sesambil msg ngn Mr B tuh I msg ngn adib..

Hahahahaha..

Yg nie sorg ag law x buat I gelak mmg x sah r..

Tp ko mmg kwn terbaik r weyh..

Even ko da pernah harukan hidop aku dulu..

Hahahaha..

Sesudah ngn dorg mcg ngn abg lak..

Adoiiyaii nie lg stu mslh..

X phm ler ngn abg skunk..

Btol2 confius..

Seyes..

Abg! Makin lama mkin ssh nk phm abg..

Tatau naper..

Abg jgn bg any hope to me..

Bosan ler abg ngn hope2 nie..

Nk2 ag dari kaum sejenis ngn abg..

Sumenya samer jea..

Sebenarnya org xnk rosakkan hubungan abg ngn akak..

Akak lg better dr org..

Abg terima ler akak n setia ler ngn akak..

Tp x bermakna hub kita will over mcm tuh..

Kita still bleyh berhubung kn??

Hope sgt sume kwn I yg dulu2,sekarang n yg akan datang

Akan trus berkawan ngn I sampai bebiler..

Jgn smpi I wish kt korg bye-bye sudah..

Rindu2 ler I selalu yea..

I will miss ol of u every second

And

I love oll of u damn much..!!!

…………………………..

………….<3>…………..

gadoh lagi...!!!!!!!!

yurp i gadowh lg ngn abg...
again and again..
dis tyme mmg trok giler r gadoh...
xpernah kitorg gadoh cm nie sblom nie..
aper mslh pon tatau ler..

bahasa yg diguna..
mmg sakit r dgr...
seyes ckp...
kasar giler arh...
nk marah k geram k pon..
agak2 r..

sedeyh kot..
xpernah2 org laki lps geram kt i cm abg wat tuh..
ex2 i sblom nie??
xpernah langsong..
i yg mrh ag ader r..
ayah i??
lg ler x pernah..
biasanya nk mrh pon ckp leklok jea..
bkn mcm nie...
siap beraku kau ag...

ee seyes takot sgt..
seram kot..
bca pon da seram sejuk jea rsanya..
law dpn2 tuh tatau r cmna..
nanges habes kot..

cra dye mmg ssh nk terima ler..
takot..
benci...
sakit aty..

sbab i x suka guy yg kasar2 cm tuh..
tp x nk yg terlampau romantik..
geli kot..
selamba ok..
kasar..???
no way ok..!!!!

btol2 gadoh tyme nie...
seyes weyh menakotkan...

abg...
sorry if i ader sakitkn aty u td...
sorry sbab naik kan drah u td..
sorry sbab tuduh u mcm2..
sorry sgt2..
...........................
..........<3>..........

homesickness...???

Yeah..

I was suffered it…

Da bermalam2 I xleyh tidow..

Subuh baru leyh tdow…

Mungkin jgak sbab stay terperuk sorg2 kt dlm bilik tuh…

Janji nk stay sesamer sepanjang cuti..

Rela aku x balik sebab pk kn korg…

Tp korg tinggalkan aku sendiri..

Sedih r sial..

Seksa weyh…

Seyes ckp mmg seksa sgt…

I rasa….

Sakit sgt…

Miss my family and my friends yg dulu2 yg sejati ngn aku..

Sedih tuh x pyh citer r…mmg sedih sgt2…

Malam tuh biler bbdk 2 da bersiap nk tinggalkan aku ntok ke berapa kali pon ntah ler…

I tekad…

Miskol my ummi…

Tp ummi x rply…

Miskol my ayah…

Ayah reply n I buat borak2 ngn ayah mcm biasa…

Lps ayah ckp ayah bz n ayah kt luar…

Perasaan lain muncul…

Sedeyh….!!!

Mata lak mcm ader jea air yg nk kuar…

Per ag I kol my ummi ag..

lebih kurang punya perbualan dat nyte!

Ummi: naper kol td?? Ummi x leyh nk kol blik..

Me: ummi nk balik…da berhari2 org tidow subuh..stay kt umah sorg2…

Ummi: naper duk umah sorg2?? Berani nya..jgn wat mcm tue lg…blik mlm nie jugak…

Me: ner ader tiket da nk blik tyme2 nie…da kol 9 lbh nie..

Ummi: kol ayah.. suruh dia decide skrg..nk suruh pak muda amek k aper k..yg penting mlm nie x stay kt umah tue sorg2 ag..jgn wat mcm nie lg…jgn nk wat org bimbang..kol ayah terus tue..lps tue gtaw kt ummi blik ayah ckp per..jgn nk wat mcm nie lg…

Me: ok2..

( da teresak2 da nanges da masa tue…sedeyh sgt…shian kt ummi ngn ayah..ummi, ayah along mintak maaf sbab telah bimbangkan ummi ngn ayah..along janji x kn wat lg..)

Lps kol ummi, I msg ayah balik…

mulanya kol tp ayah x angkat sbab ayah ader keja…

Ayah x kol aku tp kol my ummi…

Lps beberapa ketika ayah kol…

“ bersiap…kejap ag pak muda dtg amek pergi umah dia…esok k blik la umah..”

So relief I felt at time..

Mlm tue I tidow umah pak muda kt kajang…

Besh sgt..

Bgn2 tdow join faris tgk kartun kt cartoon network…

My fav also…

Pak muda da kuar masa tue g ambil zaini kt sg besi..

Cik za plak da tgk i da bgn, dye take the tyme pergi settle an keja smbil msk sarapan..

Tinggal ler I ngn faris tgk kartun…

Dari satu citer k satu citer kitorg tgk..

Lma x tengok kartun cm nie..

Nk2 ag kt cartoon network..

Besh..besh…

Mlm tue tibalah masa I nk blik…

Yeah…!!!

Blik jgk aku yea..

Mcm biasa lps pak muda hntr I naik bas ngn selamat baru ler dye blik…

Siap dpt duit ag..

hehehe...

Naik2 bas I duduk sblh sorg mamat nie..

Rupa leyh thn…

Hati pon baik gak..

Siap nk share mknn dye ngn I lg..

aduii...

Smpi kt klntn da dkt kol 6 da…

Kol ayah n ayah dtg amek…

Blik2 umah sambong tidow..

Dlm tidow2 2 dgr jugak adik2 bgn siap2 nk g sekolah..

Dorg nie celik2 jea mata…

Bising..

So miss dat moment laa..

at least terubat ler sket rindu nie…

Bgn2 tdow tgk ats meja ada pulut…

Wow! My fav tuh…

Besh2..

Ol da day kt umah per ag rutin I law …

Mkn…mkn… n mkn lg…

Ummi plak masak sume yg fav jea…

Tue yg x leyh thn tuh..

Masa balik hari tuh..

I grab this opportunity to back umah tok ayah sebelah ayah..

Besh2..

Dpt jumpa my makcik, pakcik, atok,nenek, sepupu sepapat even x semua ader..

Tp besh ler at least ader jugak yg jumpa kn..

Hari tuh umah nenek wt mkn2..

Menu dat day is nasi dagang..

I yg masak gulai ayam hari tuh taw..

Yg plik org lain mkn x skit perut tp I smpi kena food poisoning..

Plik tol..

Hehehe..

Besh sgt masa tue…

dpt gelak2, bercerita ngn ol my famly memba..mkn eskrem sesamer….

Oh yea my dear aunt marah giler ngn I biler taw I blik..

Yea la mana taknya x ckp kt dye I nk blik..

Law I ckp msti dye delay nk wat mkn2 kt umah dye hri tue..

da ler sume yg dye msk masa wt gathering tue fav I…

nk2 dye taw msa dye wat gathering tuh I da cti..

per ag bertambah bengang ler dye ngn I..

“ aunt fav 4eva, i mintak maaf yea..”

Even hanya beberapa hri kt umah..

Tp moment nya besh sgt…

It reduced my homesickness…

X sabar nk tunggu next cuti..

T cuti confirm I blik even kejap…

Tp rsanya cti plak dekat ngn raya ler…

Raya pon besh sbab bleyh jumpa sume…

All my fren pon mesti blik jugak msa tuh..

Mtx2 my fren only blik raya klntan.. tp not confirm dpt jumpa x..da dua kali raya x blik taw..

Rindu laa…

Aish mcm ler u nie nk stay jauh nur farahain rahim oii..

Duduk Selangor pon asyik nk blik jea…

Mslh tol…

Hehehe…

<3>

OMG!!!!

i his blog...

he wrote....

Killing me sweetly with L.O.V.E!

I love you yesterday

I love you still

I always have

And

I always will ....LOVE you!

.............................................

Thank you dear :)

wat u mean wif it???
i realy wanna noe....

Mari jawab tag dari my sis ! :P

1. Apa tindakan anda bila dengar bunyi kilat dan petir?

~mula2 tekejot, if tidow confirm terjaga n akn cri org or benda ntok hlgkan takot….

pastuh mulalah istighfar n baca doa...

:)

2. Reaksi anda bila ada orang mengutuk anda?

~dye yg kutuk tu baik sgt kee?

2x5 je kot, xpon lebih ag..

Org tue perfect sangat k???

eh pliss r xda org yg perfect r dalam dunia nie..

Tp per aku kisah…

korg nk ckp ak hape..
lntk korg r!!
mulot korg nk kutuk kn..
pahala yang aku dpt!
terima kasih daun keladi..
Esok2 ngumpat r lg!
wahaha. Dosa2 kau..

:P

3. Reaksi anda bila terjumpa dengan artis kegemaran anda?
~Relaxx, cool....

Please kwl diri sendiri…

buat cm biasa jea even dalam hati.

Malu tapi mahu!!!

Oh my God!!!

JUSTIN BIEBER and TAYLOR SWIFT

<3>

HAHAHA...

4. Maxis or celcom. Which one ur prefer?
~dua2 ader..

nak tambahh lagi, DG !

Even dulu da pernah pakai..

weheeee...:P

tp xnk r pakai 3 fon…

5. Nyatakan 3 bad habit anda.
~Makan3. Western, fast food n ice-cream also… even one tyme in a week I must get it..hehehe..

~Wat keje last minitt...study, basuh baju, sume lah...hehe

~mudah addicted ngn sometink yg comel n besh…hehehe

6. Apa yang akan anda lakukan jika org lain sibuk mengenai hal anda?
~Kau bz body nape???

Kain ko tue confirm x tercarik k yg ko sibok nk jaga kain org??

Banyak sgt k masa ko nk amek taw psal org??
jga diri kau sudahh laa...sebokk jea!

7. Adakah anda mempunyai ramai peminat?
~owh. ade key g minat I nie?

Takdeeee kot..

sape lah kita ni kan nk ader peminat bagai..

hehehe…

8. Apa reaksi anda bila terkentut kuat/busuk di khalayak ramai?
~ wat dunno suda...diam lebih baik..hahaha

RANDOM QUESTION ABOUT YOUR RELATIONSHIP

1. State the date u has declared with ur first couple?
~ urm lupa sudaa. tp yg pasti masa skolaa. cinta monyett ke? xkott...weeeeheee..:P

2. Adakah anda akan terus berhubung dengan bf/gf anda sekiranya clash?
~urm, tgk kadaan lah. kalau clash cara baik, cntact kott ..Vice versa!!..heheh....

3. Apa yang akan anda lakukan sekiranya merindui bf/gf anda?
~Of course la call. xpon msj ajeee..<3>

4. Adakah anda mempercayai n menyayangi bf/gf anda seratus peratus?
~ ohh tidakk.

I akan tinggalkan peratusan yg paling tinggi ntok diri I sendiri..

kalau tertipu, sape susahh?

Kalau putus, xda r frust maner pon…

heee...

5. How ur first date with ur first couple?
~biase2 aje. makan2, jalan2....cakap2..tgk muka dye yg malu2…

hahaha…

6. Adakah anda rasa bf/gf anda pandai memujuk?
~ xkot…

aku majuk, dye pon majuk..mcmanee tuh??

tp biasanya aku majok dye akan berikan masa n then akan dtg blik ngn muka x bersalah lgsong…kononnya dye sorg yg matured laa…

:P

7. Apa reaksi/tindakan anda bila bf/gf anda menghabiskan kredit utk org lain?
~ish, biar jea laa..

Bukannya laki aku nk marah2..

Tanya sudah..

Nk jujur or x..

Terpulang…

Couple2 jugak x kn nk sekat sume kot..

Sendiri mau igt yg u 2 da ader awek sudah r..

So x kn ler nk gedik lg…

Org yg sedar dirinya da berpunya.

Xkn buat benda yg bukan2..

8. What are u going 2 do if ur besties have a relation with ur ex?
~kalau da suka sgt..

Amek ler…

Bukannya dye sorg jea laki kt dunia nie..

I percaya ngn ketentuan Illahi..

If dye da bukan ntok I..

I’ll xcept it..

May b I deserve better than him…

9. Adakah anda menelefon bf/gf anda bila disuruh?
~yup. bila disuruh oleh c dye jela....heee

10. Apakah reaksi anda bila bf/gf anda masih berhubungan dengan ex mereka?
~ biar jea lah..

Itu hak dye..

Tp igt2 r sket..

Partner xkn ska dikongkong..

So give him a space for his privacy n to do what he want to do..

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