Hey April!

Hello April!

Even today is 3rd April not 1st April. Sorry guys im a bit busy right now! So many things need to face! 

So so so I just want to share that I was not a big fan of saying, “Hello (month), please be good to me!”. Yes, I have said those words a lot of time but I do not say it every month. I have this firm belief that there is no such thing as destiny in life. Because we make our own future . What we do in the present will solely affect our future. And not forget pray to HIM.

It’s my birthday month. And I don’t know why I kinda hate the fact that I’m turning 24 this year. There’s no more ..teen and the ..ty sounds old for me. Maybe 21st sounds better since it is legal age and we’re strictly ALLOWED to enter to any night club or bar. Me don’t care bout it since I’m not a party people. But still I have to accept the fact that the number will turn out to be 24 in less than 10 days more.

Every year, the April will replace March in the calendars. It’s the month to prank are waiting for. Prank haters gonna hate. I would also like to share my sentiments about those single persons ranting that April’s fool is deleted in the calendar. Face the truth, guys. April Fool couldn't be use to show your family or friends your funny side, don’t isolate yourself believing that April is just for people with fun moments. Anyways, it is nice being fun and enjoy our life.

Blowing kisses, me.

till then!

sealed with lots of love!

muahxs!

...<3>...

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hidup itu life! life itu hidup!

Hidup tak selalu indah macam diimaginasikan..
Normal lah tue, kau tak boleh nak ubah sesuka hati kau tak boleh nak buat apa.
Melainkan terus berjalan terus mengorak langkah tanpa henti..
Kalau kau malas nak melangkah, malas nak atur langkah kau
Kau kena seret jugak, tak boleh seret kau kena merangkak jugak

Pokok pangkalnya kau kena move jugak jangan duk selesa sangat laa..

Kalau kau rasa keseorangan, rasa sunyi
Kau rasa semua kawan tak ada, tak da teman nak borak
Kau rasa kosong, hidup kau nampak macam keseorangan gilaa
Kau tenang saja. jangan nak gelabah tak tentu pasal laa
Sebab tak semua kau nak kau boleh dapat, tak semua kau aim boleh jadi kenyataan

Jujur aku cemburu tengok kau ada kawan susah senang yang ramai gila. merata tempat!
Aku?
Aku tak ada ah ramai macam kau, lebih tepat, kurang sangat bilangan nya yang boleh dikalsifikasi macam kau!
Tak semua boleh diklasifikasi dalam kategori yang sama, 

If kawan-kawan contact, kawan former instituition tue ramai laa.. 

Tapi if jenis yang sewenang-wenangnya boleh  meluah perasa mengadu domba tak ramai ini kerana aku segan ngan memba aku.. if kongsi gelak ketawa aku okey! serious!

Senang cerita macam nie laa...

Kawan baik ramai,
Kawan susah senang belum jumpa seramai bilangan kawan yang baik.
Kawan kawan tak terbilang.

Ahh semuanya isu kawan,
Kawan.. kawan.. kawan..

Hey korang kawan ni perlu taw, sebab tak selalu kekasih yang kau agungkan tue berguna tiap masa.
Nak-nak if kekasih yang kau sayang tue jauh ke hujung dunia
Memang,
Semua orang pada hari nie lebih berkawan atas dasar kepentingan semata-mata

Ummi selalu pesan, Ayah selalu mengingat
Kawan ni jangan nak bersungguh sangat
Jangan mengikut cara orang, ikut cara sendiri, jaga batasan
Kawan datang dan pergi setiap hari
Lepas dah habis, entah ke mana hilang, terus dilupus jejak-jejaknya..
Tapi aku selalu bangkang, bagi aku
Mana mungkin kawan nak keji! nak khianat kita setelah kawan berabad

But now,
Aku setuju. Aku sedar..
Aku dah tak jumpa sebilangan besar kawan baik di sekolah rendah, menengah, zaman pilah, kolej

Kira dulu kamceng gila laa weyh
Aku dah tak jumpa kawan asrama yang stay satu bilik, satu blok
Kira dulu kita bergossip girl bersama laa.

Ahh cuma,
Aku sayang kawan yang selalu contact ngan aku till today, always catch up with me
Sampai sekarang berhubung, sampai sekarang lepak bersama..
Ya ya, itu semua aku consider as my friend for life laa.

Sekarang,
Di saat ini aku masih ada kawan-kawan yang aku boileh consider as my FFL
Aku tak boleh berharap diorang selalu ada untuk aku
Mereka pun ada hidup masing-masing ada komitmen yang nak kena jalankan

Dan bila ada kawan yang terbaik ever yang selalu dengar masalah pulak,
Terlalu jauh di sana.
Aku tahu aku selalu boleh harapkan kau babe.
Anything. But still,
Kau jauh.

Kena tunggu aku abes study dulu baru leyh reunite balik

Senang cerita, aku nak sangat semua orang macam aku
Serupa dgn aku, berfikir macam aku,
Susah senang macam aku.
Semua sama tak ada satu pon yang berbeza

Ah heaven nya hidup aku weyh

Apa?

Permintaan aku melampau?
Yea aku taw sangat melampau.... 

till then!

sealed with lots of love!

muahxs!

...<3>...

...

rindu kau bodoh!

The one that makes me smile like an idiot most of the time.
The one that makes me burst out my laugh. Uncontrollable one.
The one that always sneak in my mind whenever the time is.
The one that never fail to ask me whether I am okay or not even I have a big smile on my face.
The one that spoil me with kindness and his sense of man.
The one that that have heart that fit mine so well.
The one that chose me to be friend with though there’s a lot of pretty girls around him.
The one I can be true with last time.
The one that comfort me with his warmth.
The one that think I’m smart.. even i"m always depend on him!
The one that I adore so much. And nobody knows how much mine are towards him.
The one that makes me feel so lucky to be friend with him.
The one and only that can make me comfort with his words.
The one that can accept me whoever I am. Maybe!
The one that can guide me to be a better human being. Always teach me!
The one that can discuss with me without the slightest hint of fear.
The one that I wanna be friend with all the time. I wish for. But now it cant!
The one that makes me feel so precious and special.
The one that makes me comfort again and again every single day.
And there’s a lot more to mention here.
And he is the only one that I do not have right now. He’s the one that I want to be friend again.

..............

MISS U STUPID!!!

There’s no word can describe what I feel right now. I just miss you. Too much. Sorry for being such a weak one. I will always pray for you, anything for you. Remember this, did I deserved to be your 1 fan! No one can replace you. No one.

till then!

sealed with lots of love!

muahxs!

...<3>...

...

beautiful goodbye

this is currently my favorito song! really love it!
lets check out its lyrics!

I count the ways I let you down
On my fingers and toes but I'm running out
Clever words can't help me now
I grip you tight but you're slipping out

And I remember your eyes were so bright
When I first met you, so in love that night
And now I'm kissing your tears goodnight
And I can't take it, you're even perfect when you cry

Beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Your beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Oh yeah

When did the rain become a storm?
When did the clouds begin to form?
Yeah, we got knocked off course by a natural force
And we'll, we'll be swimming when it's gone

And I remember your eyes were so bright
When I first met you, so in love that night
And now I'm kissing your tears goodnight
And I can't take it, you're even perfect when you cry

Beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Your beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Oh yeah

All the pain you try to hide
Shows through your mascara lines
As they stream down from your eyes

And let them go, let them fly
Holding back won't turn back time
Believe me, I've tried

Your eyes were so bright
And I remember your eyes were so bright
And I remember your eyes were so bright
When I first met you, how in love were we that night?
And now I'm kissing your tears goodnight
And I can't take it, you're even perfect when you cry

Beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Your beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Yeah

till then!

sealed with lots of love!

muahxs!

...<3>...

...

back to reality!

hye guys! so long time no see you alls! *tiup habuk2 siket* im on holiday so masa agak mencemburui laa..

banyak sangat agenda yang tersusunnya bersama kawan-kawan tercinta and family tersayang ever! 

okey saya janji akan cuba langsaikan semua update what did to me recently..

lets go!

Final Exam

yeah im done with my final papers! dari first paper sampai ke 5th im done! senang citer dari hubungan etnik ke entrepneurship ke introduction to international business to ecommerce and last sekali paper international business finance. Alhamdulillah semuanya done on time which is on 15th january even pressure dye memang till the maximum! Masa exam hari tue motivation untuk dapat result good memang nan ado laa.. serious malas giler baca buku! apa nak jadi tak taw laa.. semua nak baca sepintas lalu jea and tengok yang rasa-rasa kena tekankan jea.. oh My! malas giler! masa tue sume berserah jea.. harap lepas jea not more than that! 

*buruk nau nau perangainya* 

Holiday a.k.a semester break

15th january tue abes paper petang malam tue terus shoot balik! giler tak sabar kan? 1st time kot balik sensorang dari perlis nie.. cuak tue tak payah nak citer laa weyh.. satu umah hantar naik bas! kredit to mak, kiena, kiela, and tak lupa ntok yati! thanks buddies! jasamu dikenang laa.. kat atas bas tue pasrah jea laa.. nasib baik partner yang duk sebelah alim.. malu taw! hikhik 

During the holiday bersusun gak laa jadualnya.. best okey holiday nie! nak citer satu2 mcm banyak sangat laa plak.. tp senang citer sume affordable! had a blast time with them! 

cant wait to see guys next break! wait for me bebeyh! muahxs! muahxs! 

Result exam! 

cukop laa dengan perkataan Alhamdulillah lepas semuanya.. yea i admit that i sedikit keciwa ngn my result sebab drop kan.. tapi still leyh kejar kot.. really hope it! ingat aim! btw thanks to all lecturers that taught me semester lepas.. terimas! jasamu dikenang! with that result im not so great on ib finance and political session i thought! 

Semester 3 done!

bila semua test dah abes result dah taw apa lagi yang boleh expect selain dari im done! Alhamdulillah semester 3 done even banyak stress yang dilalui! :) 

Semester 4 begin! 

bila daa bukak semester nie apa laa lagi leyh di expectnya selain dari menghadap semester 4 yang berliku-liku nie.. really hope that i can cope with all of this! nak2 lagi sem nie banyak giler kot killer paper! really hope that i can make it! aminnn...

rasanya sampai sinie dulu laa yea update nya.. mata daa tak leyh nak hadap lappy daa awak-awak..! 

till then

sealed with lots of love!

muahxs!

...<3>... 

...

*i miss my old times! -.-

2013

daa masuk 2013 daa kita nie weyh..!
cepat benar masa berlalu kan?
by the way

Salam tahun baru buat semua yang tersayang. termasuklah kawan-kawan keluarga tercinta!

May be terlalu "awal" untuk ucap "Ahlan Wasahlan Ya 2013" ! 

tapi paham-paham jea laa.. musim exam kan skunk tambah2 internet kat umah buat hal laa pulek! baru siang tadi abg TM datang baiki modem kat umah..

Hopefuly 2013 akan jadi tahun terbaik untuk diri sendiri dan juga kalian semua. 

Alhamdulilah ! Sejujurnya saya rasa bersyukur sangat sebab masih lagi mampu untuk bernyawa sehingga ke hari nie! semoga ada cahaya di depan sana! aminn.. 

By the way, bila masuk tahun baru mesti en azam tak akan dilupakan.. even hari tue just cakap kt en azzam kita *amboih siap en azzam kita taw! over sangat!*ada satu jea azam kita tahun nie.. maluu laa weyh nak state satu2 azam kita kt dye.. cukop laa ngn azam nak belajar rerajin tue.. hewhewhew

Kat entry nie baru kita rasa nak buat wishlist untuk tahun 2013 yang sepenuh-penuhnya. 

Moh laa kita pasang azam yang baik-baik untuk kita capai ! Berusaha, berdoa dan bertawakal agar semua yang di rancang berjalan dengan selamat ! yeay!

antara apa yang diwishlistkan tahun nie..

-Sihat tubuh badan. yang penting nak kurus! 

-nak belajar rerajin sampai ke titisan terakhir..

-habeskan study which is degree in International Business dengan jayanya.. 

-nak grade dengan status DEAN LIST!

-nak gadget baru! 

-nak jadi hambanya yang sesempurna mungkin.. in sya Allah
-nak kumpul duit banyak.
-nak berjimat sebaik mungkin..
-shopping hanya benda yang penting
-limit outfit baru.. 3 bulan sekali baru beli barang baru! hahaha
-nak berjimba sebaik mungkin ngan kawan-kawan tersayang ever!
-create reunion moment with friends tersayang ever! 

-jadi anak yang baik kepada en rahim and puan sapinah!
-enjoy every second of my life!
-dapat jawab dapat harung exam dengan sebaik mungkin! 

really hope that mr azam will berkhidmat dengan jayanya untuk saya! really hope it! doakan yea.. 

wish me luck, guys!

till then

sealed with lots of love!

muahxs!

...<3>... 

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*4 more paper to go.. wish me luck guys! uitm please be nice with me! 

end of 2012

tung tang tung tang bum bang bum bang haish seems daa nak end of the chapter daaa...

Oh My!

thats mean chapter 2012 its about to close and chapter 2011 will open soon..

berapa hari jea lagi tinggal nie.. lebih kurang 3 hari jea lagi kita nak melangkah ke tahun baru..

soooo cepatt laa masa berlalu kn?? kn? kn? 

sebenarnya nak sangat cepat  tinggalkan 2012 nie..

extremely a very terrifying year to me! penat weyh! serious! 

aper2 pon even tahun nie membuatkan my life's chapter seems terrifying but as usual still ada jugak yg nk ditelan dan dihadam dengan baik sekali.. nak2 aper yang ditelan tue paling manis rasanya..mengalahkan honey bee bee laa rasanya tue..(macam laa madu tue manis sangat kn?) 

tapiii bagi benda yang pahit rasa macam nak dimuntahkan kembali and nak recheck so that it will be a great moment to me to remembered.. 

standard laa kan benda yang manis dan sedap akan terus rasa untuk kunyah dan tak nak dye hilang langsung dari kita.. sayang kot weyh nak telan.. if telan sure lupa... saya kalau bleyh tak nak benda yang best nie hilang weyh.. x sanggup nak hadap weyh.. 

whatever it is we are just a normal person without any specialty so we cant change what happened to us in life.. apa yang ditelan tak akan dan tak mungkin akan dapat dimuntahkan balik,.. semua kena telan seadanya.. 

suka ke tak benda tue tetap daa jadi sebahagian dari hidup kita weyh.. its mean our life! 

apa yang manis dikenang dan apa yang pahit nak buang.. itulah realiti hidup!

aper2 pon yang saya rasa sepanjang tahun 2012 nie abadikan lah jea kan..sekadar membuat peringatan kepada diri sendiri..kerna masa xkn terulang lagi.. masa tak kan berpatah kembali kepada kita..

thats life flow..so we need to follow the flow..!

wahai kamoo yang bergelar azam! sudah kah kamoo bersedia untuk berkhidmat sebaik mungkin dengan saya?

eh2 nie bukan azam nama orang laaa.. xda jodoh ngn orang nama azam laa.. hikhik..

whatever it is the problem is tertunai ke azam tue? just wait and see ok bila tirai melabuhkan tirainya nanti..

apa siapa azam untuk saya next year?

x boleyh didedahkan lagi siapa kamoo azam ntok saya pada next year..

sebabnya tak list up lagi.. x sempat nak pk maybe.. penat laa weyh.. banyak benda i need to catch up..

bila daa dapat ilham nanti saya akan list up kan how mr azam will be to me.. oryte?

hope laa kan tirai tahun nie akan ditutup dengan baik sekali dan tirai next year akan dibuka dengan cemerlang and will be the one of awesome to me!
very hope it! 

till then

sealed with lots of love!

muahxs!

...<3>... 

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*happy birthday achik! be a great lil broth to me!